holy! holy! holy! holy! holy! holy!

footnotetohowl @ 2008-06-06T15:50:00

2008-06-06T23:05:44Z

i haven't been here in awhile...
lj just doesn't hold the same allure that it did. i'm becoming more shy, withdrawn, & private than ever before. i can't bear to communicate with anyone, online or in person. my mouth is on mute, i can't say anything anymore. but if you want to keep up with my life add me on myspace or facebook. i have a blog but it's more about the things i like than about me & my going ons but you could check it out anyway.

i do miss some of you. i frequently think of you & wonder how you're doing. especially 82iwant, miragesof, impeccablyblue, papercutfactory...

peace

footnotetohowl @ 2008-04-23T13:04:00

2008-04-23T20:05:13Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RtXQ31F1A-k

fuck.

2008-04-04T09:00:56Z

i got home after a kinda fun, kinda shitty night.
i was really thirsty so i opened up a small carton of milk.
i took a big sip &...
realized it was poisoned [or i guess it could have gone bad].
after i spit out the milk i started vomiting.
[i had already had too much of another beverage to drink.]
what a bad way to end my night.

wait.

2008-03-30T05:50:56Z

there is one photo that is worth taking the time to upload & post.
i present the inside of my head:

i now have proof that i have a brain! well, i've had this proof for more than a month but whatever.

oh & this be cause it's cool:

i found a nasty loogie on my pants. i don't remember spitting on myself nor do i normall spit on msyelf nor do i think i did it on purpose but i know it was me because how else would it get there?

footnotetohowl @ 2008-03-24T10:52:00

2008-03-24T17:54:06Z

today is not my day.
this year has not been my year.
things are very...roller coaster-y.

i need a drink.

footnotetohowl @ 2008-01-16T15:08:00

2008-01-16T23:08:29Z

do it.

uh oh.

2007-12-09T21:57:51Z

an old, not very exciting video that lauren & i made over thanksgiving weekend.

girls night in.

2007-12-06T23:27:51Z

we got dressed up with the intent to go to a club. instead we stayed home, drank, smoked & played mortal kombat. & in all honesty, i prefer it that way.

i feel like a fat cow sitting next to camille. fuck her for being so damn skinny.

mortal kombat is the shit.

ouch.

2007-11-30T22:46:18Z

my knees are so bruised & swollen from when i fell that i can barely walk.
i'm almost worried that i might have broken/fractured my left knee...
but i doubt it.

& here's an oldie from the day that mrstorrance came to visit.
i look so fat in it. :(

i look at all those pictures & i look like such a happy person. i mean, i was happy in those photos...but there was still that residual depression floating just below the surface. after i left & went back to my dorm that depression came back to the surface & i cried & cried & vomited. i even had vomit on my mirror. sick, i know.

the good that won't come out.

2007-11-29T18:11:44Z

last night was a disaster [just like me].
i got way too drunk.
i walked home by myself & ate shit while crossing the street.
i have an owie on my knee & hands.
i ripped my jeans.
i puked on my pillow.
i have vertigo & my tumtum hurts right now.

i think i'll go out an embarrass myself by getting drunk
& falling down in the street.
you say i choose sadness
that it never once has chosen me.
maybe you're right...

fixed.

2007-11-27T18:55:08Z

i decided [about 2 seconds after my hair dried] that grey/green/brown was not the most flattering color on me. so i went to my old work [supercuts] & let a coworker fix my hair.

the day after it got fixed:

after a few days its already fading [which is alright because it looks more natural]:

hair dye. hair die.

2007-11-21T05:27:34Z

hello, blondie.

~~hello, brownie.~~

this picture doesn't even do my hair justice. right now it's this weird mix of grey, brown & green. but mostly grey. or gray. whatever floats your boat. or moat...

footnotetohowl @ 2007-11-15T01:28:00

2007-11-15T09:29:17Z

sometimes i'm super duper happy about life.
like iow.
i''m happy.
becuase i have weed &
vodka.
thank you. bye fo now.

guess what i am for halloween?

2007-11-01T00:57:56Z

sick.
first time in my whole life that i haven't dressed up and gone out.
i'm so sad.
so cliche lj but...everything SUCKS so hard right now.

oh, & i'm now on my third week of life without cigarettes.

footnotetohowl @ 2007-10-28T21:32:00

2007-10-29T04:33:48Z

I'M LOST IN THE DARK,
LEND ME YOUR TEETH.

where do you go to (my lovely)?

2007-10-24T18:57:52Z

last night i was high, lonely, & feebly fighting off that overwhelming feeling of depression so i went to jon's place. when i got to his door, i didn't have to knock or use my key to get in. he was peeping through the peep hole & opened it the moment i got there. before he opened the door he had started playing the song that jason schwartzman plays for natalie portman in hotel chevalier [if you haven't seen it yet then you really need to!]. my boy knows exactly how to cheer me up and make me swoon.

this is my 2nd week of being nicotine free!

minnesota pt.III

2007-10-19T20:18:43Z

our hostel.

jon's great grandfather started that shop 100 years ago.

all photos by jon mocey-hanton.

the rein-elle-peacock

2007-10-18T07:43:27Z

http://www.buildyourwildself.com/

footnotetohowl @ 2007-10-16T00:03:00

2007-10-16T07:03:59Z

the faux hawk was invented by...

2007-09-26T08:23:20Z

the fifteenth us president, james buchanan.

ahaha! what the FUCK?!?!?!

2007-09-11T09:11:08Z

also, it takes me approximately 30 hits to get high. trust me - i counted.

tenderloin tubesteaks.

2007-08-27T04:58:35Z

3 friends & i decided we are going to go to popscene [some sf club...]. so we buy some sparks & then drink them. then we walk forever get on a bus full of sfsu kids. i have no idea why but then brooke & i get off the bus in castro...without kassie & adam. uh, guess i'm a tad drunk? we buy more sparks, chill with some drag queens & get on the muni. we then change plans because adam is charge of everything & thinks we won't make it popscene & he'd rather be at this gay bar called aunt charlie's. & guess what? aunt charlie's was WAY better than popscene [except for the fact that it's downtown & really sketchy].

(me + sparks = vomit) x bum rubbing my back = best picture of the whole night

oh, ps: brooke took all of these & the ones from the last post. she took a lot more pictures of both nights & if you wanna check them out go to kannan kids dot com.

fly trans love airways to san francisco.

2007-08-23T19:58:17Z

so i'm back in SF!!! finally! jon moved up here too which is amazing.
my eating habits suck, big time. my breakfast yesterday was a sparks & 2 nutter butters.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

2007-08-16T09:28:47Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

2007-07-21T15:19:35Z